Halloween. Mom bought candy for trick-or-treaters because Patty Kowalczyk buys candy for trick-or-treaters even in the years when her youngest is home from college with a dead best friend and a withdrawal on her transcript. The doorbell rang every ten minutes from five to eight. I sat on the couch and listened to the muffled shrieks of small ghosts and princesses and whatever that video game character is that every kid is dressed as this year. Dad handled the door. He gives out full-size Snickers because he has opinions about fun-size candy bars, specifically that they are a scam and an insult to the institution of Halloween. This is the strongest position my father holds on any non-plumbing topic.
On Wednesday I went to the Papalardo house. I don't know what made Wednesday the day except that I woke up and thought: it has been seven weeks and you have not knocked on that door and Jess would be furious with you. So I made go??bki. Babcia Rose's recipe — cabbage rolls stuffed with pork and rice in tomato sauce. I called Babcia Rose to ask about the sauce and she said, "Tomato, onion, a little sugar, you know." I do not know. Nobody knows. Babcia Rose's recipes exist in a dimension beyond human measurement. But I did my best. I cooked the filling, I blanched the cabbage, I rolled twelve go??bki that were lumpy and imperfect and would have made Babcia Rose sigh with disappointment, and I put them in a casserole dish and covered them with foil and walked two houses down and knocked on the door.
Mrs. Papalardo opened it. She looked smaller. She looked like a woman who had been compressed by something enormous. She saw the dish and she saw me and she said, "Oh, Amanda," and we stood in the doorway and held each other and cried. Not screaming. Not the kind of crying I did on the bench. The quiet kind. The kind that two people do when they've both lost the same person and there are no words big enough and no casserole dish deep enough but you bring one anyway because that's what you do. That's what Babcia Rose taught me. You bring food. You show up. You don't have to say the right thing. You just have to be there with a warm dish and two hands.
She invited me in. We sat at her kitchen table — Jess's kitchen table — and she heated the go??bki and we ate them. They weren't Babcia Rose's. They were mine. Lumpy, imperfect, made by a twenty-one-year-old who is barely holding it together. Mrs. Papalardo ate two. She said, "Jess would have loved these." She was being kind. Jess would have said they looked weird and eaten four. I miss her. I will always miss her. But I knocked on the door. That has to count for something.
Babcia Rose’s gołąbki will always be the dish I associate with that Wednesday — but if I’m honest, I’ve made this baked chicken fettuccine alfredo casserole more times since then, on the nights when I need to feel like I’m doing something useful with my hands and my grief. It’s the same logic: a warm dish, foil on top, something heavy enough to hold the weight of the moment. If you’re reading this because you need to bring something to someone’s door — this is the one. It travels well, it reheats well, and it tastes like someone meant it.
Baked Chicken Fettuccine Alfredo Casserole
Prep Time: 20 min | Cook Time: 35 min | Total Time: 55 min | Servings: 8
Ingredients
- 12 oz fettuccine
- 2 tablespoons olive oil
- 1 1/2 lbs boneless, skinless chicken breasts, cut into 1-inch pieces
- 1 teaspoon garlic powder
- 1 teaspoon Italian seasoning
- 1/2 teaspoon salt
- 1/2 teaspoon black pepper
- 4 tablespoons unsalted butter
- 4 cloves garlic, minced
- 2 cups heavy cream
- 1 cup whole milk
- 2 cups freshly grated Parmesan cheese, divided
- 1 cup shredded mozzarella cheese
- 2 tablespoons fresh parsley, chopped (for garnish)
Instructions
- Preheat and prep. Preheat your oven to 375°F. Lightly grease a 9x13-inch casserole dish and set aside.
- Cook the pasta. Bring a large pot of salted water to a boil. Cook fettuccine according to package directions until just shy of al dente — about 1 minute less than the package says, as it will finish cooking in the oven. Drain and set aside.
- Cook the chicken. Heat olive oil in a large skillet over medium-high heat. Season chicken pieces with garlic powder, Italian seasoning, salt, and pepper. Cook 5–7 minutes, stirring occasionally, until golden and cooked through. Transfer to a plate.
- Make the Alfredo sauce. In the same skillet, reduce heat to medium and melt the butter. Add minced garlic and cook 1 minute until fragrant. Pour in the heavy cream and milk, stirring to combine. Bring to a gentle simmer and cook 3–4 minutes until slightly thickened.
- Add the cheese. Remove from heat and stir in 1 1/2 cups of the Parmesan until fully melted and the sauce is smooth. Taste and adjust salt and pepper as needed.
- Combine and transfer. Add the drained fettuccine and cooked chicken to the sauce and toss until everything is evenly coated. Pour the mixture into the prepared casserole dish and spread into an even layer.
- Top and bake. Sprinkle the mozzarella and remaining 1/2 cup Parmesan evenly over the top. Cover tightly with foil and bake for 20 minutes. Remove the foil and bake an additional 12–15 minutes until the cheese is bubbly and golden at the edges.
- Rest and garnish. Let the casserole rest for 5 minutes before serving. Scatter fresh parsley over the top. To transport, leave the foil on and bring a clean kitchen towel to tuck around the dish.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 610 | Protein: 38g | Fat: 34g | Carbs: 42g | Fiber: 2g | Sodium: 520mg