Labor Day. Three weeks until Clay. Travis and Jolene came. Amber worked. I smoked a pork shoulder because Labor Day demands pork and because the smoking of pork is the meditation I practice, the twelve-hour prayer of fire and patience and the faith that the meat will transform if you give it enough time and enough heat.
The pork was good. Travis ate with the enthusiasm of a man who has been married for five months and has discovered that Jolene, while excellent in many ways, does not cook pulled pork. He said "Jolene tried to smoke a chicken last week." I said "How was it?" He said "We ordered pizza." Jolene, from the other side of the patio, said "It was edible." Travis said "It was not." Jolene said "I'm learning." Travis said "I know." He looked at her the way I look at Connie: with the understanding that love is not about competency but about the attempt, and that a badly smoked chicken made with love is worth more than a perfect chicken made by a stranger.
Clay called Monday evening. Three weeks. He said the unit is packing up, handing over operations to the incoming unit. He said "I'm ready to come home, Dad." Not "I want to come home." "I'm ready." There's a difference. "Want" is desire. "Ready" is completion. He's done the thing he came to do — whatever that thing is, whatever it includes that he won't tell me about — and now he's ready. The mountain has been climbed. The mine has been worked. The deployment is ending. He's ready to come out.
I said "The kitchen is ready too." He said "What are you making first?" I said "What do you want first?" He said "Soup beans. And then fried chicken. And then biscuits and gravy. And then everything else." I said "I can do that." He said "I know you can." And then, for the first time since the IED, he said something that sounded like Clay — not flat, not behind glass, but real and warm and present: "Dad, your cooking is the thing I think about when I need to think about something good." I said "That's what it's for." He said "I know." He knows. The recipe card. The soup beans. The kitchen. It's what it's for.
The pork shoulder was the main event, but what I keep thinking about is Travis loading up his plate and the way a good barbecue spread turns a patio into something that matters — proof that the act of cooking for people is its own kind of language. If you’re looking for something in that same spirit but with a shorter runway than twelve hours over fire, this Barbecued Chicken Salad Sandwich is the recipe I reach for when the smoke has settled and there’s still a crowd to feed. It’s the kind of thing Clay would ask for on day two, right after the soup beans.
Barbecued Chicken Salad Sandwiches
Prep Time: 15 min | Cook Time: 15 min | Total Time: 30 min | Servings: 6
Ingredients
- 2 1/2 cups cooked chicken, shredded or finely chopped
- 1/3 cup barbecue sauce (your favorite brand or homemade)
- 1/4 cup mayonnaise
- 2 tablespoons sweet pickle relish
- 1 tablespoon yellow mustard
- 1/2 teaspoon onion powder
- 1/4 teaspoon smoked paprika
- Salt and black pepper to taste
- 6 sandwich buns or Kaiser rolls, split and toasted
- 6 leaves green leaf lettuce
- 6 slices ripe tomato
- Dill pickle slices, optional
Instructions
- Mix the dressing. In a large bowl, whisk together the barbecue sauce, mayonnaise, pickle relish, yellow mustard, onion powder, and smoked paprika until smooth and well combined.
- Fold in the chicken. Add the shredded or chopped cooked chicken to the dressing and stir until every piece is evenly coated. Taste and season with salt and black pepper as needed.
- Chill if time allows. For best flavor, cover the bowl and refrigerate the chicken salad for at least 15 minutes to let the flavors come together. It can be made up to a day ahead and stored covered in the refrigerator.
- Toast the buns. Split the sandwich buns or Kaiser rolls and toast them on a grill, grill pan, or under the broiler for 1—2 minutes until lightly golden. This helps the buns hold up to the saucy filling.
- Build the sandwiches. Place a lettuce leaf on the bottom half of each toasted bun. Spoon a generous portion of the barbecued chicken salad on top, then layer on a tomato slice and pickle slices if using. Cap with the top bun and serve immediately.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 340 | Protein: 26g | Fat: 11g | Carbs: 34g | Fiber: 2g | Sodium: 620mg