Cookout season. Every Saturday is a cookout somewhere. Three days of counseling at the middle school in East Point. The work was the work.
Daddy in his apartment in the back. I brought him his coffee and his medication this morning. He grumbled. The grumble was the love. I caught the smell of Mama's seasoning blend at the stove Tuesday morning. Just for a second. The grief comes when it comes.
Peach cobbler Sunday. Georgia peaches. Mama's crust recipe.
Marcus, 21, studying for finals at Alabama. Jasmine, 18, home from Howard for the weekend.
I sat at the kitchen table with my tea after everybody went to sleep. Just me and the quiet.
Sunday service at New Birth this morning. The choir sang. I sang soprano in the second alto row. Pastor preached about Naomi and Ruth. The congregation said amen. I said amen.
Andre called from LA. He told the Kevin Hart story again. Twenty-some years and that boy is still telling that story. Everyone in this family is going to hear about Kevin Hart at our funerals.
Miss Ernestine called Tuesday. She's ninety-something and sharp as ever. She told me my potato salad still needs more mustard.
The neighbors had a Friday cookout this week. I brought my mac and cheese. They have come to expect this. I have come to expect this. The block is the block.
Saturday morning I had Set the Table at the Cascade Heights center. Twelve young women. We did baked chicken. One of them — Imani, sixteen — was so afraid of seasoning that she barely shook the salt. I stood next to her and put my hand over hers and said, baby, you cannot be afraid of food. We seasoned the chicken. The chicken came out right. She glowed.
I made a casserole for the church potluck. The pan came back empty. That is the only review I trust.
Tuesday evening I sat at the kitchen table with my composition notebook and worked on the cookbook. From Brenda's Kitchen — that's the working title. I cannot write the introduction without crying yet.
The blood pressure check was Wednesday. The numbers were borderline. The doctor wants me to walk more. I am walking more.
Pastor preached about the prodigal son again. He preaches about that boy at least three times a year. The text is the text but every preaching is different. I cried in the second service this time. Don't ask me why.
I had a hard counseling case at school this week. A seventh-grade girl whose mama lost her job. We talked. I gave her my number. I told her she could call.
Thursday I made cornbread for a sister at church whose husband had surgery. I dropped it off at the hospital. She cried at the door. I told her, eat the cornbread, baby. The food is the saying.
The kids were home for the weekend. The house was loud the way it should be.
I drove to the Walmart on Camp Creek Saturday morning. The kind of grocery run that takes two hours because you run into three people you know. Sister Patrice caught me in the produce. We talked about her grandbaby for fifteen minutes.
Wednesday Bible study at the church. We read through Proverbs. The women in my row argued about whether wisdom is built or born. I said both. They agreed, sort of.
I read for an hour Sunday night before bed. Some novel about a Black woman in 1960s Alabama. Mama would have liked it.
Darnell sent a photo from Clarksville. The garden is producing. He grew tomatoes the size of softballs. I sent him back a photo of my sweet potato casserole. We are competitive about food now in our middle age.
The peach cobbler was gone by Sunday evening — Jasmine got the last scoop, which felt right. But the house was still full and the kitchen was still warm, and I’ve learned from Mama that a good cook always has a second dessert in her. This Butterscotch Pecan Dessert is what I reach for when the cobbler’s been spoken for: it’s layered, a little indulgent, and the kind of thing that disappears from a pan the same way my casserole does at a church potluck — quietly, completely, and without apology. Georgia taught me that sweetness is never just one thing.
Butterscotch Pecan Dessert
Prep Time: 20 minutes | Cook Time: 25 minutes | Total Time: 45 minutes + 2 hours chilling | Servings: 12
Ingredients
- 1 cup all-purpose flour
- 1/2 cup (1 stick) unsalted butter, melted
- 3/4 cup finely chopped pecans, divided
- 1 package (8 oz) cream cheese, softened
- 1 cup powdered sugar
- 1 container (8 oz) frozen whipped topping, thawed, divided
- 2 packages (3.4 oz each) instant butterscotch pudding mix
- 3 cups cold whole milk
- 1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract
Instructions
- Make the crust. Preheat oven to 350°F. Combine flour, melted butter, and 1/2 cup of the chopped pecans in a bowl. Press evenly into the bottom of a 9x13-inch baking dish.
- Bake the crust. Bake for 20–25 minutes, until lightly golden. Remove from oven and allow to cool completely before adding the next layer.
- Make the cream cheese layer. Beat softened cream cheese, powdered sugar, and vanilla extract together until smooth and fluffy. Fold in 1 cup of the whipped topping. Spread evenly over the cooled crust.
- Make the pudding layer. Whisk together the butterscotch pudding mixes and cold milk for 2 minutes until thickened. Pour and spread evenly over the cream cheese layer.
- Top and chill. Spread the remaining whipped topping over the pudding layer. Sprinkle the remaining 1/4 cup chopped pecans evenly over the top.
- Refrigerate. Cover and refrigerate for at least 2 hours, or until fully set. Serve cold, cut into squares.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 380 | Protein: 5g | Fat: 22g | Carbs: 41g | Fiber: 1g | Sodium: 310mg