Late January. The doldrums, as I've come to call this stretch — the gray weeks between New Year's and spring when Memphis hunkers down and the only warmth comes from kitchens and churches and the stubborn belief that February won't last forever. My route is quieter now — the eastern half, shorter, my customers fewer but the ones I have are mine and I know them the way you know the verses of a hymn you've sung a hundred times: by heart, without thinking, the knowing as natural as breathing.
I went to Dr. Barker on Tuesday. The annual checkup that Rosetta schedules because she does not trust me to schedule my own health care, and she is correct in this distrust. Blood pressure: 138/86, higher than it should be. Cholesterol: 230, also higher than it should be. Weight: 267, which is lower than last year by three pounds and which I consider a triumph and Dr. Barker considers "not enough." He said the words "blood pressure medication" and I heard them the way I hear Rosetta say "vegetables": as an inevitability I am powerless to prevent.
The knee: still bad, still bone-on-bone, still in need of replacement. Dr. Barker said, "Earl, I'm going to stop asking and start insisting." I said, "You can insist all you want. The knee and I have an understanding." He said, "The understanding is that it's failing." I said, "It's not failing. It's negotiating." He shook his head. I like Dr. Barker. He shakes his head at me the way Rosetta shakes her head at me, which is with affection and exasperation and the patience of someone who knows I'll come around eventually because stubborn men always come around — they just take longer than everyone else.
Saturday I made a pot of lentil soup. Yes, lentil soup. Big E, the pork shoulder king, the man who considers kale a conspiracy, made lentil soup. Because Rosetta looked at me with the Dr. Barker numbers fresh in her eyes and said, "Earl," and the way she said my name carried the weight of thirty-three years of loving a man who eats like he's daring his arteries to quit, and I heard in that one word — "Earl" — everything she's afraid of: losing me, burying me, sitting on this porch alone. And I made the lentil soup.
Brown lentils, simmered with onion, carrot, celery, garlic, cumin, and a smoked turkey leg for flavor because I may have agreed to lentils but I did not agree to abandon smoke entirely. The soup was... good. I won't say it was better than pork shoulder. It wasn't. Nothing is better than pork shoulder. But it was warm, and nourishing, and it made Rosetta smile, and her smile is worth a pot of lentils.
That pot of lentil soup opened a door I’d kept bolted for years, and once it was open I couldn’t pretend I hadn’t walked through it. The numbers Dr. Barker read back to me — 138 over 86, 230, 267 — don’t go away just because you close your eyes, and Rosetta’s face doesn’t either. So I kept going. The next thing I made was this chickpea salad with carrots and dill: bright where the soup was smoky, cool where it was warm, but built on the same honest foundation of something that’s good for you and doesn’t apologize for it. If you’re just getting started on a road like mine, this is a good place to put your feet.
Chickpea Salad with Carrots and Dill
Prep Time: 15 min | Cook Time: 0 min | Total Time: 15 min | Servings: 4
Ingredients
- 2 cans (15 oz each) chickpeas, drained and rinsed
- 2 medium carrots, peeled and shredded or thinly sliced into coins
- 1/4 cup red onion, finely diced
- 1 celery stalk, thinly sliced
- 3 tablespoons fresh dill, roughly chopped (or 1 tablespoon dried)
- 3 tablespoons fresh lemon juice (about 1 large lemon)
- 2 tablespoons extra-virgin olive oil
- 1 teaspoon Dijon mustard
- 1/2 teaspoon garlic powder
- 1/2 teaspoon kosher salt, plus more to taste
- 1/4 teaspoon black pepper
Instructions
- Drain and dry the chickpeas. After rinsing, spread the chickpeas on a clean kitchen towel and pat dry. Removing excess moisture helps them absorb the dressing rather than diluting it.
- Make the dressing. In a small bowl or jar, whisk together the lemon juice, olive oil, Dijon mustard, garlic powder, salt, and pepper until fully combined and slightly emulsified.
- Combine the salad. In a large mixing bowl, add the chickpeas, shredded carrots, red onion, and celery. Pour the dressing over the top and toss well to coat everything evenly.
- Fold in the dill. Add the fresh dill and toss gently once more. Fresh dill is delicate — fold it in last so it doesn’t bruise or turn the salad green.
- Taste and rest. Adjust salt, pepper, or lemon juice to your liking. For best flavor, let the salad sit for at least 10 minutes before serving so the chickpeas soak up the dressing. It keeps well in the refrigerator for up to 3 days.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 225 | Protein: 9g | Fat: 8g | Carbs: 29g | Fiber: 8g | Sodium: 310mg