September is almost here and the air has changed. Not cold yet, but different. The quality of the light has shifted from white summer to gold autumn, and the corn is starting to dry, and the combines will be out soon, and I can feel the year turning the way you feel the earth move beneath you if you stand still long enough. The turn is always the same and always different, the way sunsets are always the same and always different, and I have been watching both for forty-one years and I am not bored yet.
Justin football season started and he is playing like someone who has found his language. He is fast. He is fearless. His coach calls him a natural, which is not entirely true because nothing about Justin is natural. Everything about Justin is hard-won, earned through therapy and tears and the slow, stubborn process of learning to feel without exploding. But on the field, the hard-won looks natural, and maybe that is what natural means: something you worked so hard for that it stopped looking like work.
I made my fall chili, the first batch of the season. Ground beef, kidney beans, tomatoes, onion, spices, brown sugar. The recipe has not changed in three years of writing this blog and it will not change because some things are perfect and perfection does not improve. The chili simmered on the stove while I watched Justin game through the kitchen window of my memory, because I was home but his game was away, and Dave took him, and I stayed and made chili, and the chili was for when they got home, warm and ready, because that is what the kitchen does: it waits. It holds the food. It stays warm while you are away. It is here when you come back.
Justin came home with a scrape on his elbow and a grin on his face. He had two tackles and an assist. He ate three bowls of chili and went to bed at eight-thirty, and the early bedtime was not grief this time, it was exhaustion, the good kind, the kind that comes from using every ounce of yourself on something that matters. I washed his bowl and thought: this kid. This fierce, complicated, beautiful kid. He is going to make it. He is already making it.
This is the chili I made that evening — Cincinnati-style, layered with warm spices and just enough brown sugar to round out the heat — and it has been my first-day-of-fall recipe for three years running now. I keep coming back to it because the spice blend does something the others don’t: it smells like the season the moment it hits the pan, all cinnamon and cumin and something deeper underneath, and when Justin and Dave walked through the door that night, cold-cheeked and loud, it was already waiting for them, the way the kitchen always waits. If you need a pot of something that holds the whole day together, this is it.
Cincinnati Chili
Prep Time: 15 min | Cook Time: 45 min | Total Time: 1 hr | Servings: 8
Ingredients
- 2 lbs lean ground beef
- 2 medium yellow onions, finely diced (divided)
- 4 cloves garlic, minced
- 2 cans (15 oz each) tomato sauce
- 1 can (6 oz) tomato paste
- 2 cups beef broth
- 2 tablespoons chili powder
- 1 1/2 teaspoons ground cumin
- 1 teaspoon ground cinnamon
- 1/2 teaspoon ground allspice
- 1/4 teaspoon ground cloves
- 1/4 teaspoon cayenne pepper
- 2 tablespoons Worcestershire sauce
- 1 tablespoon apple cider vinegar
- 1 tablespoon brown sugar
- 1 teaspoon salt, plus more to taste
- 1 can (15 oz) kidney beans, drained and rinsed
- Cooked spaghetti, for serving
- Shredded sharp cheddar cheese, for topping
Instructions
- Brown the beef. In a large heavy pot or Dutch oven over medium-high heat, cook ground beef, breaking it up finely as it browns, about 8 minutes. Drain excess fat, leaving about 1 tablespoon in the pan.
- Soften the aromatics. Add half the diced onion and all the garlic to the pot with the beef. Cook over medium heat, stirring occasionally, until the onion is softened and translucent, about 5 minutes.
- Build the spice base. Add chili powder, cumin, cinnamon, allspice, cloves, and cayenne. Stir to coat the meat and cook for 1 minute until fragrant.
- Add the liquids. Stir in tomato sauce, tomato paste, beef broth, Worcestershire sauce, apple cider vinegar, and brown sugar. Mix well to combine.
- Simmer low and slow. Reduce heat to low, add kidney beans, and simmer uncovered for 30 to 35 minutes, stirring occasionally, until the chili thickens and the flavors deepen. Season with salt to taste.
- Serve. Ladle over cooked spaghetti in deep bowls. Top with the remaining raw diced onion and a generous handful of shredded sharp cheddar. Serve immediately.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 390 | Protein: 30g | Fat: 16g | Carbs: 28g | Fiber: 6g | Sodium: 840mg