Fourth of July weekend. Quiet. No fireworks. No park. No Erik with his folding chair. Just me and Sven on the porch, watching the distant flash of the Bayfront show from the neighborhood, the sound arriving a beat after the light, the way sound always chases light and never catches it.
Sven didn't tremble this year. Twelve and a half years old, and the fireworks that used to send him under the porch now merely cause his ears to flatten. He's either braver or deafer. Possibly both.
I made potato salad. The Swedish kind. Vinaigrette, not mayo. The recipe the neighbors have eaten for twenty-nine years. But no neighborhood party this year — COVID — so I ate it on the porch with a bratwurst and a piece of Mamma's rye bread from the loaf I baked Saturday and the dinner was a picnic for one, which is not a picnic but is not nothing.
Peter called. He's in Chicago, a year sober now. One year. He said, "One year, Mom." I said, "I'm proud of you, Peter." He said, "Dad would be proud too." I said, "He was always proud of you." He said, "I know. I know that now."
He knows now. The knowing came with the sobriety and the dying and the dishes washed without tears and the wild rice soup made from scratch and the year of learning that the father who typed "YOU'RE HERE NOW" on a machine was the father who always loved him, even in the drinking, even in the distance, even in the silence.
Elsa stopped by on Sunday. She brought a photo from Jay Cooke — a waterfall, the St. Louis River at full roar from the summer rains. She said, "I thought you'd like it." I put it on the refrigerator, next to Paul's handmade Valentine's cards and the plaque from St. Mary's and the meatball recipe in Mamma's handwriting. The refrigerator is a gallery. A museum of love. Every item held up by a magnet and a memory.
I made a July dinner: grilled chicken with the garden salad — lettuce, tomatoes, cucumbers, radishes, dill. Everything from the beds. Everything from here. The salad was green and red and the dill was fragrant and I ate it on the porch and Sven ate kibble beside me and the evening was long and warm and we were two creatures on a porch in July, eating, breathing, being.
Being. That's the word for this month. Not grieving. Not healing. Being. The simplest, hardest verb. To be. Here. In this house. In this kitchen. In this garden. On this porch.
Being.
That July dinner — grilled chicken laid over a salad pulled straight from the garden beds, dill fragrant in the evening air, Sven eating kibble at my feet — is the meal I keep returning to when I think about what “enough” actually means. I didn’t need a party or a crowd; I needed something real and made by my own hands. This Crispy Chicken Caesar Salad is the dressed-up version of that same instinct: golden, crunchy chicken over cool, sturdy greens with a dressing worth making from scratch, the kind of meal that feels like a small, quiet celebration of still being here to make it.
Crispy Chicken Caesar Salad
Prep Time: 20 min | Cook Time: 15 min | Total Time: 35 min | Servings: 4
Ingredients
- 1 1/2 lbs boneless, skinless chicken breasts, pounded to even thickness
- 1/2 cup all-purpose flour
- 2 large eggs, beaten
- 3/4 cup seasoned panko breadcrumbs
- 1/4 cup grated Parmesan cheese, plus more for serving
- 1/2 tsp garlic powder
- 1/2 tsp salt
- 1/4 tsp black pepper
- 3 tbsp olive oil, for pan-frying
- 2 large romaine lettuce hearts, chopped
- 1 cup cherry tomatoes, halved
- 1/2 cup croutons
- For the Caesar dressing:
- 1/3 cup mayonnaise
- 2 tbsp fresh lemon juice
- 1 tsp Worcestershire sauce
- 1 tsp Dijon mustard
- 1 small garlic clove, minced
- 2 tbsp grated Parmesan cheese
- Salt and pepper to taste
Instructions
- Make the dressing. Whisk together mayonnaise, lemon juice, Worcestershire sauce, Dijon mustard, minced garlic, and Parmesan in a small bowl until smooth. Season with salt and pepper, then refrigerate until ready to serve.
- Bread the chicken. Set up three shallow bowls: flour in the first, beaten eggs in the second, and panko mixed with Parmesan, garlic powder, salt, and pepper in the third. Dredge each chicken breast in flour, then egg, then the panko mixture, pressing gently to adhere.
- Cook the chicken. Heat olive oil in a large skillet over medium-high heat. Add breaded chicken and cook 5–7 minutes per side, until deeply golden and cooked through (internal temperature 165°F). Transfer to a cutting board and let rest 5 minutes, then slice on the bias.
- Assemble the salad. Arrange chopped romaine on a large platter or individual plates. Scatter cherry tomatoes and croutons over the greens. Lay sliced chicken on top.
- Dress and serve. Drizzle Caesar dressing over the salad to taste. Finish with a generous shower of shaved or grated Parmesan and a few cracks of black pepper. Serve immediately.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 480 | Protein: 42g | Fat: 22g | Carbs: 28g | Fiber: 3g | Sodium: 680mg
About the cook who shared this
Linda Johansson
Week 225 of Linda’s 30-year story
· Duluth, Minnesota
Linda is a sixty-three-year-old retired nurse from Duluth, Minnesota, living alone in the house where she raised her children and said goodbye to her husband. She lost Paul to ALS in 2020 after two years of watching the kindest man she'd ever known lose everything but his dignity. She cooks Scandinavian comfort food and Minnesota hotdish and the pot roast Paul loved, and she sets two places at the table out of habit because it makes her feel less alone. Every recipe she writes is a person she's loved.