September. The farmers market is transitioning — the last tomatoes sharing space with the first squash, the apples arriving in force, the summer fruits giving way to the fall roots. I walked through the market on Sunday with Miya on my hip and felt the turn, the shift, the calendar of food rotating from one season to the next. Carol's booth had the last shishitos and the first kabocha, side by side, summer and fall on the same table. I bought both. I always buy both during the transition weeks. The overlap is the best part — the moment when you have everything, both seasons in your basket, both flavors on your counter, the abundance of the between.
I made a transitional meal — grilled shishitos alongside roasted kabocha, rice, miso soup — a dinner that belonged to no single season but to the space between seasons, which is, I think, where I live. Between Japanese and American. Between grief and acceptance. Between the blog and the book. Between the marriage I have and the life I am building. The between is not a waiting room. The between is a country. I am learning to be a citizen.
Miya started saying full sentences this week — complex ones, with subjects and verbs and occasional adjectives. "I want more of the yummy rice." "The cat is sleeping on my blanket." "Mama is cooking soup again." The "again" in that last sentence is what got me — the recognition, at two and a half, that mama is always cooking soup, that soup is the constant, the background music of our household, the thing that happens regardless of season or mood or grief. Mama is cooking soup again. Yes, baby. Always. Again and again and again.
Brian started going to the gym this week, a decision he announced with the enthusiasm of a man who has found a new project. I am wary. Not of the gym — exercise is good, Brian at the gym is better than Brian at the taproom — but of new projects that take him further away from the kitchen, from the table, from the apartment where Miya and I eat soup and wait for him to come home. Another absence, even a healthy one, is still an absence. But I said, "That is great, babe," because supporting your partner's self-improvement is the minimum requirement of marriage, even when the self being improved is always elsewhere.
Miya called it. Mama is cooking soup again. And she’s right — soup is the thing I come back to when everything else is shifting, the one constant I trust in a kitchen full of variables. This deconstructed wonton soup is what I made the rest of that week after the farmers market, after the shishitos and the kabocha were gone — a bowl that carries the same warmth as a proper wonton but asks less of you, which felt exactly right for a season asking a lot of everything else.
Deconstructed Wonton Soup
Prep Time: 15 min | Cook Time: 20 min | Total Time: 35 min | Servings: 4
Ingredients
- 1 lb ground pork
- 2 teaspoons fresh ginger, grated
- 3 cloves garlic, minced
- 2 tablespoons soy sauce, divided
- 1 tablespoon sesame oil, divided
- 1/4 teaspoon white pepper
- 6 cups low-sodium chicken broth
- 1 cup water
- 8 oz wonton wrappers, cut into rough squares or strips
- 2 cups baby bok choy, roughly chopped
- 3 green onions, thinly sliced
- 1 tablespoon rice vinegar
- Chili oil, for serving (optional)
Instructions
- Season the pork. In a medium bowl, combine ground pork, ginger, half the garlic, 1 tablespoon soy sauce, 1/2 tablespoon sesame oil, and white pepper. Mix until just combined — do not overwork.
- Brown the meat. Heat a large pot or Dutch oven over medium-high heat. Add the pork mixture in small, tablespoon-sized crumbles (no need to form dumplings — this is the deconstructed part). Cook, breaking up as needed, until browned and cooked through, about 6–8 minutes. Transfer to a plate and set aside.
- Build the broth. In the same pot, add remaining garlic and cook 30 seconds over medium heat. Pour in chicken broth and water. Add remaining 1 tablespoon soy sauce and rice vinegar. Bring to a gentle boil.
- Cook the wrappers. Drop wonton wrapper pieces into the simmering broth one at a time to prevent sticking. Cook 3–4 minutes, until just tender and slightly translucent.
- Add greens. Stir in bok choy and cook 1–2 minutes, until wilted but still bright green.
- Finish and serve. Return pork to the pot. Drizzle with remaining sesame oil. Ladle into bowls and top with green onions and chili oil if desired.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 390 | Protein: 28g | Fat: 16g | Carbs: 32g | Fiber: 2g | Sodium: 820mg