Jayden's birthday week. He turns five on March 6th. FIVE. The fire truck boy is five. He's losing the baby face — the cheeks are thinning, the jaw is squaring, he looks like a small person instead of a large baby. He's in pre-K and he can write his name (the letters have stopped running from each other and now stand in a reasonable approximation of a line). He can count to thirty. He can tie his shoes (loosely, optimistically, in a knot that will come undone within four steps, but he CAN). He is five and he is a person and I made him and he makes me proud every single day.
The party was small — apartment, family, Diego (the fire truck friend). The cake was a fire truck. Again. Third year running. But this year Chloe helped me build it — we used a rectangular cake, red frosting, pretzel sticks for the ladder, and Oreos for the wheels. Chloe's engineering was superior to mine (she has spatial reasoning that I do not). The fire truck cake looked... actually good this year. Like an actual fire truck. Not a fire truck that had been in a fire. Progress.
The COVID news is getting scary. Cases in New York. Cases in Washington state. The President did a press conference. The stock market dropped. People are using the word "pandemic" now. The word I keep pushing away — pandemic — keeps pushing back. I am twenty-six weeks pregnant and the word "pandemic" is in the news every hour and I am trying to throw a fire truck birthday party for a five-year-old while the world rearranges itself into something I don't recognize.
Terrence came for the birthday — drove up Friday, here through Sunday. He brought Jayden a gift: the fire helmet. THE fire helmet. The original one. The Wanda one. The one Jayden lent him in September. Terrence brought it back. He said: "I borrowed it. Time to return it." Jayden took the helmet and held it like a holy object and put it on his head and it still fit (barely — he's growing, the helmet is not) and he looked at Terrence and said: "You took good care of it." You took good care of it. The loan fulfilled. The promise kept. The man who left came back and returned what was borrowed and the four-year-old — now five-year-old — looked at him and confirmed: you are trustworthy. You kept the thing I gave you safe. That's all Jayden ever asked. That's all any of us ever ask.
I made the birthday chili and cornbread. The same. Always the same. The birthday dinner doesn't change. Jayden doesn't change (except in height and shoe size and the number of candles on the fire truck). The chili is the constant. The cornbread is the foundation. Five candles this year. He blew them out in one breath. Wish: classified. (But I'm guessing it involves sirens.)
Every year, no matter what else is happening — no matter how many candles are on the fire truck cake or how much the world outside seems to be tilting on its axis — the birthday chili stays the same. It’s the dinner Jayden doesn’t have to ask for, because he already knows it’s coming. This elk meat chili is bold and deeply savory, the kind of pot that fills the apartment with a smell that says celebration and home in the same breath — and when you’re twenty-six weeks pregnant and the news is saying “pandemic” every hour, you hold onto your constants with both hands.
Elk Meat Chili
Prep Time: 20 minutes | Cook Time: 1 hour 15 minutes | Total Time: 1 hour 35 minutes | Servings: 8
Ingredients
- 2 lbs ground elk meat
- 1 tablespoon olive oil
- 1 large yellow onion, diced
- 1 green bell pepper, diced
- 4 cloves garlic, minced
- 1 can (28 oz) crushed tomatoes
- 1 can (15 oz) diced tomatoes
- 2 cans (15 oz each) dark red kidney beans, drained and rinsed
- 1 cup beef or venison broth
- 2 tablespoons chili powder
- 1 tablespoon ground cumin
- 1 teaspoon smoked paprika
- 1/2 teaspoon cayenne pepper (adjust to taste)
- 1 teaspoon dried oregano
- 1 teaspoon salt, plus more to taste
- 1/2 teaspoon black pepper
- 1 tablespoon tomato paste
- Optional toppings: shredded cheddar, sour cream, sliced green onions, cornbread
Instructions
- Brown the elk. Heat olive oil in a large heavy-bottomed pot or Dutch oven over medium-high heat. Add the ground elk meat and cook, breaking it apart with a wooden spoon, until browned and cooked through, about 8–10 minutes. Drain any excess fat and transfer meat to a plate.
- Sauté the aromatics. In the same pot, add the diced onion and green bell pepper. Cook over medium heat, stirring occasionally, until softened, about 5 minutes. Add the minced garlic and cook 1 minute more until fragrant.
- Build the base. Stir in the tomato paste and cook for 1–2 minutes, letting it caramelize slightly. Return the browned elk meat to the pot.
- Add liquids and beans. Pour in the crushed tomatoes, diced tomatoes, and broth. Add the drained kidney beans and stir to combine.
- Season. Add chili powder, cumin, smoked paprika, cayenne, oregano, salt, and black pepper. Stir well to incorporate all the spices throughout the chili.
- Simmer. Bring the chili to a gentle boil, then reduce heat to low. Cover partially and simmer for at least 45 minutes, stirring occasionally, until the chili has thickened and the flavors have melded. Taste and adjust seasoning as needed.
- Serve. Ladle into bowls and top with shredded cheddar, sour cream, and green onions as desired. Serve alongside warm cornbread for the full birthday tradition.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 310 | Protein: 32g | Fat: 8g | Carbs: 28g | Fiber: 8g | Sodium: 620mg