The week between Christmas and New Year's. Back in Portland, back in the apartment, back in the kitchen that is mine. The Sacramento visit sits in my body like a heavy meal — nourishing but difficult to digest. The image of Miya holding Ken's hand. The image of Ken eating Fumiko's food with that expression. The image of the Japanese vegetable book on Miya's shelf. The images accumulate in the archive of my memory and the archive is full and I keep adding to it because the alternative is forgetting and I will not forget.
I made kuromame — the annual ritual, the sweet black beans, the nail in the pot. This year the making was so familiar that my hands moved without instruction, the soaking and the simmering and the waiting all happening in muscle memory. The kuromame is the benchmark: six years ago I could not make it. Now I make it without thinking. The not-thinking is the mastery. The mastery is the practice completed. Not completed — there is no completion. But the practice has reached the stage where the practice is the body and the body is the practice and the distinction between the two has dissolved, like miso in dashi.
I made datemaki and prepared the ozoni components. The New Year's spread is smaller than Fumiko's — it will always be smaller, because I am one woman with one daughter and Fumiko was one woman with a family around her — but the smallness is not inadequacy. The smallness is scale. The love is the same at any scale. The miso is the same whether you make one bowl or ten. The scale is a number. The love is not a number.
New Year's Eve. Miya is here this year — the calendar swung back. We made noisemakers from paper plates and beans and shook them at midnight (her midnight was nine PM — a six-year-old does not stay up until twelve, and the fiction of midnight at nine is a parental compromise I defend without shame). She shook her noisemaker and said, "Happy new year!" and I said, "Happy new year, baby," and the baby is not a baby anymore but the word persists because language is slower than growth and the words for our children are always a season behind the children themselves.
In the days between making the kuromame and watching Miya shake her paper-plate noisemaker, I kept coming back to my matcha whisk — not for anything ceremonial, just for the quiet repetition of it, the way whisking matcha into foam is the same motion every single time and asks nothing of you except to be present. This minty iced matcha latte became the small, cold counterpoint to all that warm, heavy nourishment: something bright and light and entirely mine, made in two minutes between simmering pots. If the kuromame is the mastery, the matcha is the breath between measures.
Minty Iced Matcha Latte
Prep Time: 5 min | Cook Time: 0 min | Total Time: 5 min | Servings: 1
Ingredients
- 1 tsp ceremonial-grade matcha powder
- 2 tbsp hot water (not boiling — about 175°F)
- 1 tbsp honey or simple syrup, or to taste
- 3/4 cup cold oat milk (or dairy milk of choice)
- 1/4 cup fresh mint leaves, lightly packed
- 1/2 cup ice cubes
- 1 small sprig fresh mint, for garnish
Instructions
- Bloom the matcha. Sift the matcha powder into a small bowl or wide cup. Add the hot water and whisk briskly in a quick W or M motion for 30–45 seconds until the matcha is fully dissolved, smooth, and lightly frothy with no dry clumps.
- Sweeten. Stir the honey or simple syrup directly into the warm matcha concentrate until fully incorporated. Taste and adjust sweetness as you like.
- Muddle the mint. Place the fresh mint leaves in the bottom of a tall glass. Press gently with the back of a spoon or a muddler just until the leaves bruise and release their fragrance — about 4 or 5 presses. Do not shred them.
- Build the drink. Fill the glass with ice cubes. Pour the cold milk over the ice and mint.
- Pour and layer. Slowly pour the matcha concentrate over the back of a spoon held just above the milk so it layers on top. Stir gently before drinking, or leave layered for the visual.
- Garnish and serve. Tuck a small fresh mint sprig into the glass alongside the ice and serve immediately.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 95 | Protein: 3g | Fat: 2g | Carbs: 17g | Fiber: 1g | Sodium: 75mg