The Santa Ana winds came through Tuesday. Fire warnings. Pre-deployment workups have been ramping up. Ryan was gone Wednesday through Friday for a field exercise.
Caleb, 8, wants to be a firefighter still. Has not deviated. Hazel, 5, opinions about everything. Has Donna's directness without the diplomacy.
Meatloaf Tuesday. The classic. Glazed. Mashed potatoes underneath.
Mom called Sunday. We talked while she was putting up tomatoes from the garden. She is sixty-something and gardening like she is forty. Megan called from D.C.. We talked twenty minutes. The relationship is better now than it was.
The freezer is the secret. The freezer was full this week.
Ryan went to his counselor Wednesday. He always comes home calmer. I am calm too, just from him being calm. The man Torres was killed with — Ryan calls his wife twice a year on Torres's birthday and the anniversary. The military widows are their own community.
I read the blog comments at the kitchen table with my coffee. A young spouse in Lejeune emailed me about deployment cooking. I wrote her back at length. I told her about the freezer. I told her about Donna. I told her she would survive. I sent her three of Donna's recipes.
The PCS rumors are starting again. The official orders will come in a few months. We could move. We could stay. The waiting is the worst part. Three years here and I have learned to not put down deep roots in any military town. Nineteen-year-old me would not have believed how good I have gotten at packing.
Ryan's friends came over Friday for a beer. I made wings and chips. They demolished both. Standard Marine appetite — they eat like they are still on rations. The kitchen looked like a battlefield by the end. They cleaned up. Marines clean up. Donna would have been impressed.
Ryan came home tired Wednesday. He showered, ate, sat on the couch, was asleep by eight. Standard for a Marine who has been up since four-thirty for PT and stayed late for a brief. The schedule is the schedule. The body adapts because it has to.
The kids' soccer game was Saturday morning. The other parents brought oranges and Capri Suns. I brought a thermos of coffee for myself and a folding chair I bought at Target three years ago that has been to four duty stations now. The chair is a more loyal companion than some of my friends.
Donna sent a recipe card in the mail this week. She has been doing this for years. The recipes go in the binder. The binder is full. The newest one is for a green bean casserole that uses fresh green beans and fried shallots and which I will absolutely make for the next holiday.
Hazel and I had a hard moment Tuesday at homework time. She is in a season of testing limits. We worked through it. We always do. She is mine.
I made a casserole for a neighbor whose husband is deployed. I dropped it off. She cried. I told her, eat the casserole, baby. The food is the saying. The casserole was a mostly-frozen tater-tot situation that took fifteen minutes of effort and six months of practice to perfect.
Wednesday morning meal prep — Sunday afternoon, hours of containers. The freezer is full. The future-me thanks present-me. Donna taught me this routine. Donna's freezer was always full. Donna saved her sanity with quart bags labeled in Sharpie.
I unpacked another box from storage Tuesday afternoon. Three years on this base and I am still finding things I packed in Twentynine Palms. Military-wife archeology — every box is a layer of geological history. I found a ceramic dish from Lejeune still wrapped in newspaper from 2020.
Donna taught me that the freezer is not a backup plan — it’s the whole plan. This week proved it again. When I told that young spouse in Lejeune about the freezer, I wasn’t just talking about soup and meatloaf; I was talking about dessert too, because a full freezer means you always have something to offer, something to share, something to pull out when the kids need a win and you need five minutes of quiet. These no-bake low-carb cheesecake cookie dough cups go straight from prep into the freezer, and they are exactly the kind of thing future-you thanks present-you for.
No Bake Chocolate Chip Cheesecake Cookie Dough Cups (Low Carb)
Prep Time: 20 min | Cook Time: 0 min | Chill Time: 2 hours | Total Time: 2 hours 20 min | Servings: 12
Ingredients
- Cookie Dough Layer
- 1 1/2 cups almond flour
- 1/4 cup unsalted butter, softened
- 3 tablespoons granulated erythritol or monk fruit sweetener
- 1 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
- 1/4 teaspoon fine salt
- 1/2 cup sugar-free mini chocolate chips
- Cheesecake Layer
- 8 oz full-fat cream cheese, softened
- 1/3 cup powdered erythritol or powdered monk fruit sweetener
- 1/2 cup heavy whipping cream, cold
- 1 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
- 2 tablespoons sugar-free mini chocolate chips, for topping
Instructions
- Prep your cups. Line a standard 12-cup muffin tin with paper or silicone liners. Set aside.
- Make the cookie dough base. In a medium bowl, combine almond flour, softened butter, erythritol, vanilla, and salt. Mix with a fork or your hands until a soft dough forms. Fold in the 1/2 cup mini chocolate chips. Divide dough evenly among the 12 liners and press firmly into an even layer on the bottom of each cup.
- Make the cheesecake filling. In a large bowl, beat softened cream cheese and powdered sweetener with a hand mixer on medium speed until completely smooth, about 2 minutes. Scrape down the sides. In a separate chilled bowl, whip the cold heavy cream to stiff peaks. Fold the whipped cream and vanilla into the cream cheese mixture gently until fully combined and fluffy.
- Fill the cups. Spoon or pipe the cheesecake mixture evenly over each cookie dough base, filling each liner nearly to the top. Smooth the tops with the back of a spoon.
- Top and chill. Scatter the remaining 2 tablespoons of mini chocolate chips over the tops. Transfer the muffin tin to the refrigerator and chill for at least 2 hours, or until fully set.
- Store or freeze. Once set, cups can be refrigerated in an airtight container for up to 5 days, or transferred to a zip freezer bag — labeled in Sharpie — and frozen for up to 6 weeks. Thaw at room temperature for 10 minutes before serving.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 215 | Protein: 4g | Fat: 20g | Carbs: 7g | Fiber: 2g | Sodium: 98mg