Pulled out the elk notebook, same as last year and the year before that. The progression of the chili recipe is documented there, seven years of elk seasons, each entry noting what changed and whether it was worth keeping. This year I'm making no changes. Last year's recipe is the finished one. What I'm doing instead is optimizing the process — the timing of the chile-toasting, the order of browning, the length of the final simmer. The recipe is fixed. The execution can always improve.
Dad's medication was adjusted at his September appointment. The neurologist added a second medication to the regimen to address some increased tremor in the right hand. The first week of the new medication was hard — side effects that Dad described only as feeling off, which from him is the equivalent of considerable complaint. By the second week he was better. The tremor has improved. The hand that signs papers is the hand that drives the swather and wraps fence wire, and it still does those things, and that's enough for now.
Posted an essay about the elk notebook. The practice of recording what you did and whether it worked, applied to cooking. The distinction between a recipe that's still developing and one that's arrived. How you know the difference — not from external confirmation but from the internal recognition that nothing more is needed. Several people wrote back about their own fixed recipes, the ones they've stopped changing. A woman in Vermont said her grandmother's pie crust was like that — seventy years, not a change. I believe her.
Made apple butter this week. A full fall afternoon — apples from the tree in the north corner of the yard, cooked down for hours with cinnamon and a little brown sugar, stirred constantly. The color changes as it concentrates, going darker and richer until it's the right shade. Packed into jars while hot. October mornings will be better for it.
The apple butter took most of the afternoon, and when the jars were sealed and lined up on the counter there were still a few apples left from the north corner tree — not enough for another batch, but too good to leave sitting. Baked apples felt right: the same patient, slow heat, the same cinnamon, the same kind of recipe that doesn’t need improving. Some things just belong to October.
Old-Fashioned Honey Baked Apples
Prep Time: 10 minutes | Cook Time: 45 minutes | Total Time: 55 minutes | Servings: 4
Ingredients
- 4 large baking apples (such as Honeycrisp, Braeburn, or Rome Beauty)
- 1/4 cup honey
- 2 tablespoons unsalted butter, cut into 4 pieces
- 1 teaspoon ground cinnamon
- 1/4 teaspoon ground nutmeg
- 2 tablespoons brown sugar, packed
- 1/4 cup chopped walnuts or pecans (optional)
- 1/2 cup apple cider or water, for the baking dish
Instructions
- Preheat oven. Heat oven to 350°F. Lightly butter a baking dish large enough to hold the apples upright without crowding.
- Core the apples. Using a melon baller or apple corer, remove the core of each apple from the top, leaving the bottom intact. Create a cavity about 3/4 inch wide and deep enough to hold the filling. Peel a 1-inch strip around the top of each apple to prevent splitting.
- Make the filling. In a small bowl, combine the brown sugar, cinnamon, and nutmeg. Stir to combine. If using nuts, fold them in.
- Fill the apples. Place apples in the prepared baking dish. Spoon the sugar and spice mixture evenly into each cavity. Drizzle honey over and into each apple. Top each with a piece of butter.
- Add liquid. Pour the apple cider or water into the bottom of the baking dish. This keeps the apples moist and creates a light pan sauce as they bake.
- Bake. Bake uncovered for 40 to 45 minutes, basting once or twice with the pan juices, until the apples are tender when pierced with a knife but still hold their shape. The tops should be golden and slightly caramelized.
- Rest and serve. Let rest for 5 minutes before serving. Spoon pan juices over each apple. Serve warm, plain or with a small pour of cream.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 220 | Protein: 1g | Fat: 7g | Carbs: 42g | Fiber: 4g | Sodium: 15mg