Mason started first grade. New teacher — Mr. Adkins, young, enthusiastic, the kind of teacher who wears a tie with dinosaurs on it because he knows his audience. Mason walked into the classroom and found Ethan and they high-fived and started talking about something with such urgency that I was immediately irrelevant. I took this as a compliment. A child who can walk into first grade and find his people without looking back is a child who has been loved enough to be brave. I stood in the hallway until I couldn't see him anymore, then went to the car, and this year I only cried for five minutes. Progress.
Lily is counting down to preschool. I told her this week and the reaction was everything I hoped — shrieking, jumping, running in circles, telling Hank, telling the cats on TV, telling the mailman. She starts in September and she has already picked out her backpack (pink with horses, obviously) and her outfit for the first day (a tutu over jeans, negotiated down from a full princess costume). She is four and she believes that preschool is going to be the greatest adventure of her life, and I hope she's right, even though I also know that she'll cry on the first day because all children cry on the first day, and I'll cry in the car because all mothers cry in the car.
The divorce mediation is scheduled for September. We're doing it without lawyers — too expensive on two working-class salaries — with a mediator recommended by a woman at the clinic whose sister went through the same thing. The plan is to agree on custody (one weekend a month for Scott, holidays alternating), child support (whatever Scott can afford, which won't be much), and assets (I keep the house and the kids and the cast iron skillets; he keeps his truck and his fire gear and his freedom). It should be simple. Simple divorces are the ones where there's nothing left to fight over.
I harvested the first real batch from the garden this week: six tomatoes, a basket of zucchini, a handful of peppers, and enough basil to make pesto. I made pesto from scratch — basil, garlic, pine nuts, Parmesan, olive oil, pulsed in the food processor until it's a thick green paste that tastes like summer distilled. Tossed with pasta, it's a ten-minute dinner that makes me feel like an Italian grandmother, which is aspirational for a ranch girl from Idaho but not impossible.
The garden is teaching me something about patience. You plant. You water. You wait. You cannot rush a tomato. You cannot argue with a pepper. You can only do the work and trust the process and let the dirt do what dirt knows how to do, which is turn seeds into food and nothing into something. There is a metaphor here, and it is not subtle, and I don't care. I am a woman rebuilding her life from the ground up, and the ground is teaching me how.
The basket of tomatoes sitting on my counter all week finally had a purpose beyond making me feel accomplished every time I walked past them. I’d already made the pesto — that happened almost on instinct the afternoon I harvested the basil — but the tomatoes deserved their own moment, something a little more substantial than a salad on a Tuesday night when the kids were tired and I was tired and we all just needed to sit down together. This one-pot creamy tomato basil pasta is exactly that: garden tomatoes, fresh basil, one pan, twenty minutes, and a meal that tastes like the dirt and the patience and the waiting finally paid off.
One Pot Creamy Tomato Basil Pasta
Prep Time: 5 minutes | Cook Time: 20 minutes | Total Time: 25 minutes | Servings: 4
Ingredients
- 12 oz penne or rigatoni pasta
- 2 tablespoons olive oil
- 4 cloves garlic, minced
- 2 cups fresh tomatoes, roughly chopped (about 4–5 medium garden tomatoes)
- 1 can (14.5 oz) crushed tomatoes
- 2 1/2 cups chicken or vegetable broth
- 1/2 cup heavy cream
- 1/2 teaspoon red pepper flakes (optional)
- 1/2 teaspoon salt, plus more to taste
- 1/4 teaspoon black pepper
- 1/2 cup freshly grated Parmesan, plus more for serving
- 1/2 cup fresh basil leaves, torn, plus more for garnish
Instructions
- Build the base. Heat olive oil in a large, deep skillet or Dutch oven over medium heat. Add garlic and cook for about 60 seconds, stirring constantly, until fragrant but not browned.
- Add the tomatoes. Add the fresh chopped tomatoes and crushed tomatoes to the pan. Stir to combine and cook for 3–4 minutes, letting the fresh tomatoes begin to break down and release their liquid.
- Cook the pasta. Pour in the broth and bring the mixture to a boil over medium-high heat. Add the uncooked pasta, red pepper flakes, salt, and black pepper. Stir well, then reduce heat to medium. Cook uncovered for 12–14 minutes, stirring every 2–3 minutes, until the pasta is al dente and most of the liquid has been absorbed. Add a splash of broth or water if the pan looks dry before the pasta is cooked through.
- Finish with cream. Reduce heat to low. Stir in the heavy cream and Parmesan until the sauce is smooth and creamy, about 1–2 minutes. Taste and adjust salt as needed.
- Add the basil. Remove from heat and fold in the torn fresh basil. The heat of the pasta will wilt it gently without turning it bitter.
- Serve. Dish into bowls and top with extra Parmesan and a few fresh basil leaves. Serve immediately.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 520 | Protein: 17g | Fat: 19g | Carbs: 72g | Fiber: 5g | Sodium: 680mg