Thanksgiving 2017. Year two of the divorced-parents dinner, and this time I was prepared. The turkey was miso-glazed to perfection. The takikomi gohan was rich and earthy with mushrooms. The kabocha was golden. The kuromame was glossy and perfect. The yuzu tart was — and I say this with the careful restraint of a woman who does not usually praise her own cooking — a masterpiece. Buttery shortbread crust, tangy yuzu custard, a whisper of whipped cream. It was the best thing on the table and everyone knew it.
Barbara arrived Wednesday, talking. She has not stopped talking since. Gerald nodded from the couch. Ken arrived Thursday morning, in a sport coat, carrying a small bag of daikon from his garden, which is the Ken Nakamura equivalent of bringing a bottle of wine. He handed me the daikon at the door and said, "These are good ones." I said, "Thank you, Dad." He nodded. The daikon went into a quick pickle that was on the table within an hour, because fresh Sacramento daikon deserves to be eaten immediately, not stored.
The dinner itself was an exercise in managed tension. Barbara talked too much — about the house renovation, about Gerald's retirement plans, about a play she was directing in Ashland. Ken said almost nothing. He ate every dish. He ate the kuromame last, slowly, with an expression that — if you know Ken, if you have spent thirty-two years learning to read the micro-expressions of a man who shows nothing — was his mother's recipe reaching him through time and space and ceramic bowls. He tasted Fumiko. I saw it happen. I looked away because the seeing was too private, too sacred, the moment of a son tasting his mother's food made by his daughter's hands.
Brian was good. He was charming and helpful and he drank only two beers, which I noticed because I notice everything, and two is better than four, and the noticing is the disease and the relief is the symptom. Miya toddled between everyone — the neutral territory, the thing everyone agreed on, the baby who does not understand that the adults in the room are performing a complicated choreography of love and distance and history, and whose obliviousness is a gift.
After everyone went to bed, I stood in the kitchen alone and ate a piece of yuzu tart directly from the pan and thought: I did this. This meal. This family. This bridge between the Japanese side and the American side, between Mom and Dad, between miso and turkey, between the food I inherited and the food I invented. I did this. And it was good.
That yuzu tart — the one I ate alone in the kitchen at midnight — started with the crust. Always the crust. A buttery, crumbling, press-in shortbread that held everything together, and it made me think of pasta frolla, the Italian shortcrust pastry that does exactly the same thing for a completely different culinary tradition: anchors something tender and tangy inside a frame of pure butter and flour. These pasta frolla Christmas jam cookies aren’t Japanese, and they aren’t mine by inheritance — but they are the kind of recipe that belongs on a table where two families are learning to share the same room, because the shortbread crust is a language everyone speaks.
Pasta Frolla Christmas Jam Cookies
Prep Time: 20 minutes + 30 minutes chill | Cook Time: 14 minutes | Total Time: 1 hour 4 minutes | Servings: 24 cookies
Ingredients
- 2 1/4 cups all-purpose flour
- 1/2 cup powdered sugar, plus more for dusting
- 1/2 tsp baking powder
- 1/4 tsp fine sea salt
- Zest of 1 lemon
- 3/4 cup (1 1/2 sticks) cold unsalted butter, cut into small cubes
- 2 large egg yolks
- 1 tsp pure vanilla extract
- 2–3 tbsp cold whole milk, as needed
- 1/2 cup fruit jam (strawberry, apricot, or raspberry)
Instructions
- Make the dough. In a large bowl, whisk together the flour, powdered sugar, baking powder, salt, and lemon zest. Add the cold butter cubes and use your fingertips to rub the butter into the flour until the mixture resembles coarse breadcrumbs with some pea-sized pieces remaining.
- Add the wet ingredients. Add the egg yolks and vanilla and mix until the dough begins to come together. Add cold milk one tablespoon at a time, mixing just until the dough holds when pressed — do not overwork it.
- Chill. Flatten the dough into a disk, wrap tightly in plastic wrap, and refrigerate for at least 30 minutes.
- Preheat and prep. Preheat the oven to 350°F (175°C). Line two baking sheets with parchment paper.
- Shape the cookies. On a lightly floured surface, roll the dough to about 1/4-inch thickness. Cut into rounds using a 2-inch cookie cutter. For sandwich cookies, cut a small star or circle from the center of half the rounds. Re-roll scraps once.
- Bake. Place the cookies on the prepared baking sheets and bake for 12–14 minutes, until the edges are just barely golden. Do not overbake — they should stay pale and tender. Transfer to a wire rack and cool completely.
- Assemble. Dust the cut-out tops generously with powdered sugar. Spread about 1 teaspoon of jam onto each solid base cookie, then gently press a dusted cut-out top on top of each. Let the jam set for 10 minutes before serving.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 112 | Protein: 1g | Fat: 6g | Carbs: 14g | Fiber: 0g | Sodium: 42mg