Halloween. Liam went as a pumpkin for the second consecutive year. He stood on the stoop in his pumpkin costume and participated in the candy distribution process—standing next to Sean with his own bowl, handing candy to other children with the focused generosity of a person who understands what this event requires—and seemed entirely clear on the purpose and stakes involved. The neighbor kids came twice in different costumes. Liam handed candy both times without comment.
The anatomy scan is in three weeks. I've been thinking about Nora as though the name is already true, which is either intuition or wishful thinking and I won't know which until the scan. Sean has been saying both options out loud when he talks to my stomach—alternating Nora and a boy's name we'd discussed and which I like less—and the one that sounds right to me in his voice is Nora.
I made pumpkin soup again this week, the second batch—Liam had a very specific reaction to the first batch a few weeks ago, which was that he ate three servings and pointed at the pot and said "more pumpkin" and so I made more pumpkin. He eats it every time with the authority of someone who knows what they like. The pumpkin obsession is not accidental. He is a consistent person with consistent preferences and I find this deeply reassuring about the person he's becoming. You want your children to know what they want. He knows.
Twenty weeks next week. Halfway there again. The second time around it both feels shorter and more understood, which is the paradox of any experience you do twice.
When Liam pointed at the soup pot and said “more pumpkin,” I took it seriously—because that’s the kind of clear, unambiguous feedback you respect. Between soup batches, I wanted something I could have ready when the pumpkin request inevitably came in a different form, and these bars have become exactly that: all the warmth and earthiness of pumpkin season in something I can hand him at the counter while the next pot is still on the stove. The peanut butter keeps them filling enough for a real snack, and the oats give them that settled, autumn-afternoon quality that feels right for where we are right now.
Pumpkin Peanut Butter Oatmeal Bars
Prep Time: 10 minutes | Cook Time: 25 minutes | Total Time: 35 minutes | Servings: 12 bars
Ingredients
- 1 1/2 cups old-fashioned rolled oats
- 1/2 cup whole wheat flour
- 1 teaspoon baking soda
- 1 teaspoon ground cinnamon
- 1/4 teaspoon ground nutmeg
- 1/4 teaspoon salt
- 3/4 cup pumpkin puree (not pumpkin pie filling)
- 1/2 cup natural peanut butter
- 1/3 cup maple syrup or honey
- 1 large egg
- 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
- 1/4 cup chocolate chips or raisins (optional)
Instructions
- Preheat oven. Heat your oven to 350°F. Line an 8x8-inch baking pan with parchment paper and set aside.
- Mix dry ingredients. In a large bowl, whisk together the oats, flour, baking soda, cinnamon, nutmeg, and salt until combined.
- Mix wet ingredients. In a separate bowl, stir together the pumpkin puree, peanut butter, maple syrup, egg, and vanilla until smooth and fully incorporated.
- Combine. Pour the wet ingredients into the dry ingredients and stir until a thick, even batter forms. Fold in chocolate chips or raisins if using.
- Bake. Spread the batter evenly into the prepared pan. Bake for 22—26 minutes, until the edges are set and a toothpick inserted in the center comes out clean.
- Cool and slice. Let the bars cool completely in the pan before lifting out the parchment and slicing into 12 bars. They firm up as they cool—don’t rush it.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 165 | Protein: 5g | Fat: 7g | Carbs: 22g | Fiber: 3g | Sodium: 140mg