LEAP testing week arrived and the whole school moved through it in a kind of collective trance — quiet hallways, no assemblies, lunch eaten quickly. I tested Monday through Wednesday: ELA, math, science. I felt steady during all of it. I had prepared. There is a particular kind of calm that comes from genuine preparation, different from the brittle calm of hoping for the best. I knew the material. I let myself know that I knew it.
Thursday the phone rang at 4:47 PM and Mama called me from the kitchen. It was Ms. Fontenot. The LSU Junior Academy of Science had accepted me. Three weeks in June, on the LSU campus in Baton Rouge, living in the dorms, working in actual science labs alongside faculty researchers. Forty students total from across Louisiana. I had been selected as one of them.
I stood in the kitchen holding the phone after the call ended, not saying anything. Mama was watching me from the counter where she was cutting okra. She said, "Well? Tell me something." I said, "I got in." She set down her knife, walked over, and hugged me for a long time. She smelled like kitchen and soap and the particular warmth that is just Mama. She said, "I knew it. Baby, I always knew it."
Daddy got home at six and I told him at the dinner table. He got this expression he gets sometimes — eyes going soft and proud and a little like he might cry, though he never does. He said, "LSU. My daughter at LSU." And then he laughed and said I was thirteen steps ahead of him already. I told him I was fourteen. He laughed harder.
I made a celebratory dessert that night: banana pudding from scratch, with real vanilla custard and fresh bananas layered with vanilla wafers. MawMaw Shirley always says banana pudding is what you make when something good happens. I didn't have her recipe memorized yet but I called her and she talked me through every step while I stirred. It took forty-five minutes and I ate two bowls and felt like the world was exactly the right size.
MawMaw Shirley says you make something sweet when something good happens, and she’s never been wrong about that. The banana pudding I made that night was perfect, but when I called her again the next weekend to tell her I wanted to practice more from-scratch custard desserts before heading to Baton Rouge, she told me to try a raspberry fool — real custard folded with fresh fruit, simple enough to make on a Thursday night but special enough to mean something. I made it twice before June, and both times I ate two bowls and felt that same feeling: the world, exactly the right size.
Raspberry Fool
Prep Time: 20 minutes | Cook Time: 15 minutes | Total Time: 35 minutes (plus chilling) | Servings: 4
Ingredients
- 2 cups fresh raspberries
- 1/4 cup granulated sugar (for the berries)
- 1 tablespoon fresh lemon juice
- 3 large egg yolks
- 1/3 cup granulated sugar (for the custard)
- 1 cup whole milk
- 1 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
- 1 tablespoon cornstarch
- 1 cup heavy whipping cream
- 2 tablespoons powdered sugar
- Fresh mint leaves, for garnish (optional)
Instructions
- Prepare the raspberry compote. In a small saucepan, combine the raspberries, 1/4 cup granulated sugar, and lemon juice over medium heat. Cook for 5–7 minutes, stirring occasionally, until the berries break down into a loose sauce. Press through a fine-mesh sieve to remove seeds if desired. Set aside to cool completely.
- Make the custard. In a medium saucepan, whisk together the egg yolks, 1/3 cup granulated sugar, and cornstarch until smooth. Gradually whisk in the milk. Cook over medium-low heat, stirring constantly with a wooden spoon or silicone spatula, until the mixture thickens enough to coat the back of the spoon, about 6–8 minutes. Do not let it boil.
- Cool the custard. Remove from heat and stir in the vanilla extract. Pour into a bowl, press plastic wrap directly onto the surface to prevent a skin from forming, and refrigerate until completely cool, at least 1 hour.
- Whip the cream. In a chilled bowl, beat the heavy cream and powdered sugar with a hand mixer or whisk until soft peaks form. Do not over-whip.
- Fold it together. Gently fold the whipped cream into the chilled custard until just combined. Drizzle in about 3/4 of the raspberry compote and fold loosely — you want visible ribbons of berry running through, not a uniform color.
- Serve. Spoon the fool into glasses or bowls. Top each serving with a spoonful of the remaining raspberry compote and a few fresh raspberries or mint leaves. Serve immediately or chill up to 2 hours.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 390 | Protein: 5g | Fat: 26g | Carbs: 37g | Fiber: 4g | Sodium: 45mg