November 10. The Fitzgerald. Twenty-nine men. Forty-five years ago today.
I played the Lightfoot song at six PM — the time the ship went down in 1975. I sat in Paul's chair with the reading stand and I opened his favorite book and I read the last chapter aloud, to the room, to Sven, to Paul, to the twenty-nine men.
My voice in the room where his voice used to be. My reading where his reading used to be. The words the same. The passage the same. The final transmission: "We are holding our own."
I am holding my own.
After the reading, I sat in silence. The house was quiet. Sven was asleep. The lake was outside, dark and enormous, the same lake that took the Fitzgerald and that Paul loved and that his headstone faces.
I said, out loud: "Twenty-nine men, Paul. Remembered." The same words he typed last year on the eye-tracker. The same remembering.
I will do this every November 10. I will play the song and read the chapter and observe the silence. Not because I care about the Fitzgerald the way Paul cared — I don't, I never did, my interest was in Paul's interest — but because the observance is Paul's, and keeping Paul's observances alive is how I keep Paul alive, in the kitchen, in the readings, in the November ritual.
The ritual is love made repeatable.
I baked bread. Saturday. The promise. The limpa. And I started the Thanksgiving preparations: the cranberry sauce (from scratch, always), the pie crust (made ahead, frozen), the stuffing bread (baked Tuesday, drying on the counter).
The house smells like preparation. The house smells like anticipation. The house smells like the week before the people arrive.
I made a November dinner: venison stew. Erik brought the meat — he hunted last weekend, as he does every November, the tradition. The venison braised with root vegetables and juniper berries, the Swedish stew of winter, the stew of men who hunt and women who cook and the table that holds both.
Erik ate with me. At the table. Three places set — his, mine, Paul's. Erik looked at Paul's place and he didn't say anything and the not-saying was the saying.
November 10. The Fitzgerald. Twenty-nine men. The stew. The bread. The holding.
We are holding our own.
The venison stew was Paul’s November — the one Erik hunts for, the one I braise with juniper and root vegetables the way my mother taught me. But there are other November nights, the ones between the rituals, when I need something warm and fast and uncomplicated, something that fills the kitchen with steam and smells like dinner is happening. That’s when I make this soup. A big pot, a simple broth, ravioli that swells and softens and soaks up everything around it. I made it the week before Thanksgiving when I was deep in pie crusts and stuffing bread and needed one thing that just took care of itself. Erik had a second bowl. Paul would have too.
Ravioli Soup
Prep Time: 10 minutes | Cook Time: 30 minutes | Total Time: 40 minutes | Servings: 6
Ingredients
- 1 lb Italian sausage (sweet or mild), casings removed
- 1 medium yellow onion, diced
- 4 cloves garlic, minced
- 1 can (14.5 oz) diced tomatoes, undrained
- 1 can (6 oz) tomato paste
- 6 cups low-sodium chicken broth
- 1 tsp Italian seasoning
- 1/2 tsp dried basil
- 1/4 tsp crushed red pepper flakes (optional)
- 20 oz fresh or frozen cheese ravioli
- 3 cups fresh baby spinach
- Salt and black pepper to taste
- Freshly grated Parmesan cheese, for serving
- Crusty bread, for serving
Instructions
- Brown the sausage. In a large Dutch oven or heavy pot over medium-high heat, cook the Italian sausage, breaking it into pieces with a spoon, until browned and cooked through, about 6–8 minutes. Drain excess fat if needed, leaving about 1 tablespoon in the pot.
- Sauté the aromatics. Reduce heat to medium. Add the diced onion and cook, stirring occasionally, until softened, about 4 minutes. Add the garlic and cook 1 minute more until fragrant.
- Build the broth. Stir in the tomato paste and cook for 2 minutes, letting it caramelize slightly. Add the diced tomatoes with their juices, chicken broth, Italian seasoning, dried basil, and red pepper flakes if using. Stir to combine.
- Simmer. Bring the soup to a gentle boil, then reduce heat and simmer uncovered for 10 minutes to let the flavors develop.
- Cook the ravioli. Add the ravioli directly to the simmering soup. Cook according to package directions, typically 4–6 minutes for fresh or 7–9 minutes for frozen, until the pasta is just tender.
- Add the greens. Stir in the baby spinach and cook 1–2 minutes until wilted. Taste and adjust salt and pepper.
- Serve. Ladle into deep bowls. Top each serving with freshly grated Parmesan. Serve with crusty bread alongside.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 430 | Protein: 24g | Fat: 19g | Carbs: 38g | Fiber: 4g | Sodium: 890mg
About the cook who shared this
Linda Johansson
Week 242 of Linda’s 30-year story
· Duluth, Minnesota
Linda is a sixty-three-year-old retired nurse from Duluth, Minnesota, living alone in the house where she raised her children and said goodbye to her husband. She lost Paul to ALS in 2020 after two years of watching the kindest man she'd ever known lose everything but his dignity. She cooks Scandinavian comfort food and Minnesota hotdish and the pot roast Paul loved, and she sets two places at the table out of habit because it makes her feel less alone. Every recipe she writes is a person she's loved.