Back to three shifts a week at the ER. The work is the same — traumas, overdoses, the steady rhythm of human crisis — but the coming-home is different. I come home to an empty apartment now, and the emptiness has a texture, a weight, like walking through water. The stove light is on because I leave it on for myself. The refrigerator has Lourdes's Tupperware and my own batch-cooking and nothing of Jason's — no leftover pizza, no beer, no evidence of a second appetite.
Pete from the ER asked how I'm doing. Pete is sixty-two, a charge nurse who has seen everything, and his version of asking how you're doing is to stand next to you at the supply cabinet and say, "You good, Santos?" I said, "I'm good." He said, "Heard the firefighter moved." The ER gossip network is the only intelligence apparatus that rivals Lourdes's auntie network. I said, "He did." Pete nodded. He said, "You making food tonight?" I said, "Always." He said, "Bring me some." Pete's love language is requesting food. Mine is providing it. We are well-matched in this regard.
I made sinigang for Pete — Reynaldo's salmon sinigang, the recipe that is part Alaska, part Philippines, part a dead man's love letter to two countries. I used sockeye salmon from the freezer, caught by Joseph's crew in Kodiak and sent to me in a cooler that arrived smelling like the ocean and ambition. The tamarind broth was sour. The kangkong wilted in the hot broth. The salmon fell apart into pink flakes that dissolved on the tongue like a prayer.
I brought the sinigang to Pete the next day. He ate it in the break room, standing at the microwave, the way ER nurses eat everything — quickly, between crises, with one ear on the radio. He said, "Santos, this is the best thing I've ever eaten in this building." I said, "That's a low bar." He said, "It's a compliment. Take it." I took it. I take compliments the way I take everything now — carefully, with both hands, knowing that the good things are as real as the hard things and deserve the same attention.
Jason called at 11 PM. He's settling in. The Fairbanks station is smaller than Providence but the fires are bigger — wildfires, the specific Alaskan danger that burns through summer and into fall. He sounds energized. He sounds like a man in the right place. I am happy for him. I am sad for me. Both truths. Both real. Both held in the same hand, the way you hold a bowl of sinigang — carefully, because it's hot and it's full and you don't want to spill.
The salmon sinigang I made for Pete came from a place I can’t always reach on a weeknight—it took time, and tamarind, and the specific grief-energy that makes you want to cook something with history. But the feeling underneath it, that pull toward the ocean, toward something clean and briny and real, doesn’t always wait for a long afternoon. Simple Herbed Scallops are what I make when I need that same steadiness in twenty minutes—seafood that tastes like it was caught by someone who cared, finished with herbs that smell like a kitchen that’s lived in. I’d bring these to Pete too, if I’m being honest. He’d eat them standing at the microwave and call it the best thing in the building, and I’d take the compliment with both hands.
Simple Herbed Scallops
Prep Time: 10 min | Cook Time: 8 min | Total Time: 18 min | Servings: 4
Ingredients
- 1 1/2 lbs large sea scallops, patted very dry
- 1/2 tsp kosher salt
- 1/4 tsp black pepper
- 2 tbsp olive oil
- 2 tbsp unsalted butter
- 3 cloves garlic, minced
- 2 tbsp fresh flat-leaf parsley, finely chopped
- 1 tbsp fresh chives, snipped
- 1 tsp fresh thyme leaves
- 1 tbsp fresh lemon juice
- Lemon wedges, for serving
Instructions
- Dry the scallops. Pat scallops thoroughly dry with paper towels—this is the single most important step for a good sear. Season both sides with salt and pepper.
- Heat the pan. Heat a large stainless steel or cast iron skillet over high heat until very hot, about 2 minutes. Add olive oil and swirl to coat.
- Sear the scallops. Add scallops in a single layer, making sure they don’t touch. Sear without moving for 2 to 3 minutes, until a deep golden crust forms on the bottom.
- Flip and finish. Flip each scallop. Add butter to the pan. As it melts and foams, add the garlic and cook 1 minute, tilting the pan and basting scallops with the butter using a spoon.
- Add the herbs. Remove pan from heat. Scatter parsley, chives, and thyme over the scallops. Drizzle lemon juice over everything and toss gently to coat.
- Serve immediately. Transfer to a warm plate and serve at once with lemon wedges. Scallops wait for no one.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 230 | Protein: 28g | Fat: 11g | Carbs: 5g | Fiber: 0g | Sodium: 480mg