Mid-October and the Tampa Bay area is doing its best impression of autumn: the temperature has dropped to a positively chilly eighty-one degrees, some ambitious trees are changing color (or possibly dying — in Florida the line is thin), and the pumpkin patches have appeared in every empty lot and church parking lot, selling gourds to people who will carve them and display them and then watch them melt in the subtropical heat within seventy-two hours.
I closed on a beautiful mid-century modern home in Seminole Heights this week. The buyers were a young couple — teachers, both of them — and they had the kind of budget that makes you creative about finding value in overlooked neighborhoods. I love working with first-time buyers. They remind me of myself in 1996, when Mark and I bought our first house and I walked through the front door and thought: this is mine. Before the BMW and the bankruptcy and the gambling. Before the house became a trap instead of a home. Before I learned that owning a house means nothing if the people inside it are broken.
Dimitri is growing a mustache. He showed up at Sunday dinner with this thing on his upper lip and Mama looked at him and said you look like your father, and the table went silent because she meant it as a statement of fact but it landed as a grenade of emotion. Dimitri touched his lip. I looked at my plate. Sophia looked at Alexander. Alexander looked at the wall. Mama said eat your moussaka, which is how Voula detonates and defuses bombs simultaneously.
The mustache does look like Baba's. It is impossible not to see Nikos in Dimitri when Dimitri grows facial hair — the same thick Greek mustache, the same jaw, the same expression of stubborn self-assurance. I both love it and cannot look at it without my throat tightening. Grief ambushes you from the strangest angles. A mustache. A sponge. A specific shade of flour on a bakery counter. You think you are fine and then a mustache walks through the door and you are not fine at all.
I made spanakopita pie tonight — not the triangles but the big slab cut into squares, because sometimes you need the comfort of a whole pan of spinach and cheese and buttery phyllo. I made it the way Mama makes it: the phyllo brushed with olive oil, not butter, because we are Greek and olive oil is our love language, and the filling thick with spinach and feta and dill and scallions. I ate two squares standing at the counter. Then I sat down and ate a third. Then I called Mama and told her Dimitri's mustache made me cry and she said I know, koritsi mou. I know. We breathed together on the phone for a minute. Then she told me my spanakopita uses too much dill. This is how she says I love you.
I cannot give you my spanakopita tonight — Mama’s version, with olive oil and too much dill and grief folded into every layer — but I can give you the next closest thing: a warm, bubbling pan of spinach and cheese that asks nothing of you except a chip or a piece of bread and the willingness to stand at the counter and let it help. This spinach artichoke dip has the same soul as the filling I make every time someone dies or grows a mustache or says something at the dinner table that lands like a grenade — creamy, savory, unreasonably comforting, and impossible to eat just one serving of.
Spinach Artichoke Dip
Prep Time: 10 minutes | Cook Time: 25 minutes | Total Time: 35 minutes | Servings: 8
Ingredients
- 10 oz frozen chopped spinach, thawed and squeezed very dry
- 14 oz canned artichoke hearts, drained and roughly chopped
- 8 oz cream cheese, softened
- 1/2 cup sour cream
- 1/2 cup mayonnaise
- 1 cup shredded mozzarella cheese, divided
- 1/2 cup grated Parmesan cheese, divided
- 3 cloves garlic, minced
- 1/2 tsp crushed red pepper flakes (optional)
- Salt and black pepper to taste
Instructions
- Preheat oven. Heat oven to 375°F. Lightly grease a 9-inch baking dish or a small cast iron skillet and set aside.
- Squeeze the spinach. Wrap the thawed spinach in a clean kitchen towel or several layers of paper towels and squeeze firmly until nearly all moisture is removed. This step is not optional — wet spinach will make your dip watery.
- Mix the base. In a large bowl, beat the softened cream cheese until smooth. Stir in the sour cream and mayonnaise until fully combined and creamy.
- Add the remaining ingredients. Fold in the spinach, artichoke hearts, minced garlic, 3/4 cup of the mozzarella, and 1/4 cup of the Parmesan. Season generously with salt and black pepper. Add red pepper flakes if using.
- Transfer and top. Spread the mixture evenly into the prepared baking dish. Sprinkle the remaining 1/4 cup mozzarella and 1/4 cup Parmesan over the top.
- Bake. Bake for 22–25 minutes, until the dip is hot throughout, bubbling at the edges, and golden on top. If you want more color, broil for 2–3 minutes at the end — watch it closely.
- Serve. Let cool for 5 minutes before serving. Serve warm with pita bread, crackers, sliced baguette, or vegetables. Eat at least two servings standing at the counter before anyone else gets to it.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 285 | Protein: 9g | Fat: 24g | Carbs: 8g | Fiber: 2g | Sodium: 480mg