The second-to-last week of year two. I've been taking stock — not formally, not with lists or metrics, but with the quiet internal accounting of a person who pauses before a milestone and looks back at the territory covered. Two years ago: couldn't cook. One year ago: could cook Korean food competently, had visited Korea, was in therapy, had a small Korean community. Now: cooks Korean food fluently, has a robust Korean-American social network, is in intermediate Korean language classes, has been to Korea, has 23andMe results (99.7%), has called KAS, is approaching the birth mother search with the careful, terrified, determined energy of a person who has spent two years building the emotional infrastructure necessary to survive whatever the search produces. The infrastructure is built. The supports are in place. The next step — the actual search — is the step I'll take in year three. Or year four. Or whenever the terrified gives way to the determined and the determined outweighs the terrified. Dr. Yoon says that day will come. I believe her.
This week I made something new: nurungji — crispy rice, the golden, crunchy layer that forms at the bottom of a rice pot when the rice is cooked over direct heat. In Korea, nurungji is eaten as a snack or dissolved in hot water to make sungnyung, a nutty, toasty rice tea. Making nurungji requires abandoning the Zojirushi (which produces perfect, un-crunchy rice every time) and cooking rice in a regular pot over a flame, deliberately letting the bottom layer overcook until it's golden and crackly. The first time I made it, I burned the rice completely. The second time, I caught it at the right moment — golden, not black, crunchy, not charred — and peeled the nurungji from the pot like a crispy rice pancake. The texture was addictive: crunchy, nutty, the flavor of toasted rice concentrated into a crispy sheet. I ate half of it plain and poured hot water over the rest to make sungnyung, and the tea was warm and gentle and tasted like the Korean countryside, like an imagined Korean grandmother's kitchen, like comfort distilled into a cup.
The nurungji felt appropriate for this moment. It's made from the leftovers — the stuck-to-the-bottom, almost-burned remains of a pot of rice. It takes the thing that could have been waste and transforms it into something valuable. The metaphor writes itself: the leftover identity, the almost-burned-out Korean-ness that stuck to the bottom of my American life, scraped up and transformed into something golden and crunchy and nourishing. I am the nurungji. Two years ago I was stuck to the bottom of the pot. Now I'm golden.
At work, the platform redesign is progressing. The architecture is implemented, the migration is planned, the testing is underway. The project will define my year at Amazon, and I'm proud of the work, genuinely proud, the way I'm proud of my cooking — not because of the recognition it brings but because of the quality of the craft. Good engineering and good cooking share the same foundation: care, attention, the willingness to iterate until the thing works.
Kevin called to say Bridge City's first month was profitable. Not wildly — but they covered costs and had money left over, and for a new coffee shop in Portland, that's a victory. "Lisa says we should celebrate," Kevin said. "I said I want to wait until month three. If we're profitable at three months, we're real." Three months. Kevin measuring success in quarters, not days. The long-term thinking of a sober person. The patience that sobriety requires and rewards. Kevin is real. Bridge City is real. The coffee is real. Everything my brother is building is real and solid and I am so proud of him that it aches.
Saturday: Bellevue. I brought nurungji — the crispy rice — and sungnyung — the rice tea. Karen tried the nurungji and said, "Oh! This is like the crunchy bits at the bottom of the rice pot!" Exactly. The crunchy bits. The overlooked bits. The almost-discarded bits that turn out to be the best part. Karen understood the food. I'm not sure she understood the metaphor. That's okay. The food is enough. The food is always enough.
The week I made nurungji for the first time—really made it, golden and crunchy and peeled from the pot like something earned—I wanted everything on the table to carry that same spirit: humble ingredients treated with attention, simple food elevated by care. This ramen vegetable stir fry is the bowl I kept coming back to alongside it. It’s the kind of recipe that rewards the same patience the nurungji does: high heat, the right moment to pull back, and the trust that the ordinary can become something worth sitting down for.
Ramen Vegetable Stir Fry
Prep Time: 10 minutes | Cook Time: 12 minutes | Total Time: 22 minutes | Servings: 2
Ingredients
- 2 packages (3 oz each) instant ramen noodles, seasoning packets discarded
- 1 tablespoon sesame oil
- 1 tablespoon vegetable oil
- 3 cloves garlic, minced
- 1 teaspoon fresh ginger, grated
- 1 cup broccoli florets, cut small
- 1 medium carrot, julienned or thinly sliced
- 1 red bell pepper, thinly sliced
- 1 cup snap peas, trimmed
- 3 tablespoons soy sauce
- 1 tablespoon rice vinegar
- 1 tablespoon brown sugar or honey
- 1 teaspoon chili garlic sauce or sriracha, optional
- 2 green onions, thinly sliced, for garnish
- 1 teaspoon sesame seeds, for garnish
Instructions
- Cook the noodles. Bring a medium pot of water to a boil. Add ramen noodles and cook for 2 minutes, until just tender. Drain and toss immediately with sesame oil to prevent sticking. Set aside.
- Make the sauce. In a small bowl, whisk together soy sauce, rice vinegar, brown sugar, and chili garlic sauce if using. Set aside.
- Heat the wok. Heat vegetable oil in a large wok or skillet over high heat until shimmering—the pan should be hot enough that a drop of water evaporates on contact. This is the moment that matters: high heat gives you that toasty, golden edge on the vegetables.
- Stir fry aromatics. Add garlic and ginger to the hot oil and stir constantly for 30 seconds until fragrant. Do not let them burn.
- Add vegetables. Add broccoli and carrot first, stir frying for 2 to 3 minutes. Add bell pepper and snap peas and continue stir frying for another 2 minutes, until vegetables are crisp-tender with a little char on the edges.
- Add noodles and sauce. Add the cooked noodles to the wok, pour the sauce over everything, and toss with tongs or two wooden spoons for 1 to 2 minutes until the noodles are well coated and everything is heated through. Let the noodles sit undisturbed for 30 seconds once or twice so they can pick up a little color on the bottom—that toasty note is the whole point.
- Serve. Divide between two bowls and garnish with green onions and sesame seeds. Eat immediately while the edges are still crispy.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 420 | Protein: 12g | Fat: 16g | Carbs: 58g | Fiber: 6g | Sodium: 980mg